Monday, March 14, 2011

Check 1..2..

So for the past 3 almost 4 days I have been at home..in my bed. People ask "how is the pregnancy going?" and I answer "it's going great! oh except that I have caught every disease known to man since I have been pregnant!"
For 8 weeks straight I have had one sickness after another. As soon as I start to feel better and start to socialize again..
BAM it hits me! It always hits me pretty hard too.
This time I am not sure if I got the stomach virus that seems to be going around or if it did have to do with the pregnancy. I am really hoping just a virus because if I have to go through anymore of what I did this weekend..then I want out of this deal! (not really...:o))
I haven't eaten since Thursday...not a real meal anyway... today was the first day that I was able to actually get up and move around for more then 3 minutes at a time.
I can handle being sick..thats not so much the issue...the real problem is that I just don't get why everything ALWAYS happens when Jorge is gone.
ALWAYS.
He has only been gone 15 days and if I counted all of the poopy diapers...
and I don't just mean yummy thick poopy diapers...I mean leaking out the side diapers...
and all of the throw up I have seen and cleaned up in these 15 days....
it would equal more...then the 2 years that Gabe has been alive!
Thats not an exaggeration...
I have no right to complain about Jorge being gone...
there are women who go without their husbands for 3 months...6 months...a year and longer.

I have mad respect for all of you ladies!

This is the first year that it has really bothered me that he is gone...
I'm sure the fact that I am pregnant and sick has something to do with it.
And the more I think about him being gone after this baby comes scares me to death.
I just want him to be here..for all of us.
I am so lucky to have a great mother who helps me out. And Jorges mom who brings us food.
And Awesome friends who would drop everything to do whatever I needed.
So I don't have a right to complain...
Plus the fact that Gabe will come out of nowhere and give me kisses for no reason at all. He makes it all better...:o)
So this is NOT a me complaining BLOG this is a me just getting it out....
ahhhh I feel better now....
thanks for listening!

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3 comments:

Shannon said...

Every woman has to at some time or another hold down the fort, be mom & dad, be the disciplinarian & caregiver. You have every right to be "done", but you are a strong woman that will pull this off. Jorge wants to be home as much as you want him home, I think that's where you find comfort in the distance that separates you. There is nowhere else you would both rather be than in each other's arms. 2 weeks, 2 months, or 1 year...hard is hard! Hope you get to feeling better soon! I hope Jorge comes home soon and gets to take care of you! Wish I was there to help, but I'm thinking about you!

Tessa said...

Thank Shan! I know that you know the feeling. Probably more so then I do..I am sure Mike has been gone much longer periods of time then Jorge has ever had to be gone. I can handle it...its just that sometimes it can feel like the sky is falling...and onl when they are not there to catch it. Thanks lady.
I can't wait til you do get here!!

♡ Ambrosia said...

Well put Shan =]