Gabe has his first field trip today! He's going all the way to tucson ekkkk and Im an anxiety attack waiting to happen! I was going to go with him but I decided that I need to let him go do this on his own. Yet the crazy thoughts are still in my head, everything bad that could possibly go wrong. An hour drive seems like eternity when it comes to your child! I wish somebody would have told me how overwhelming this whole first year of school can be. He is 3 months into school and I still want to cry everytime I watch him walk towards the school, or when his teacher said "enjoy KINDERGARDEN it flys by". I want to bawl even when I think about the end of the school year. Everything is so different now that he is in school. It has made me realize that I need to appreciate my time with my girls while I still have them at home. Suddenly everything doesn't seem so overwhelming, instead it's easier to cope with Juliana's drama and her constant need for attention. If