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I know we say this every year but SERIOUSLY what happen to 2015? The years go by faster and faster somehow and yet it is so bittersweet. I can look back on the last year and see what a gift, what an amazing blessing it was for me. I can see ahead also and see that this year has so much more potential and it makes me so excited!  Last year I decided to change my thinking, my habits, deepen my faith, serve more and work on my marriage more.  Last year was a year of big prayers for me. My prayers became bigger and deeper and, I think, for the first time I actually believed what I was praying for. In May I started to read Anything by Jennie Allen  She challenges you to fully commit and tell God that you will do ANYTHING for Him. It's pretty scary when you think about it, because if there truly is a God then He really is going to listen and take you up on that offer. The bible tells us several time to "test" God.          ...

Open Doors

I have been meaning to blog all summer but eventually it just all seemed like to much. Summer went way to fast and I haven't been able to process the fact that summer is really over and that school has already been back in session for a month. I would say my family had a great summer. We got to visit family in Indiana for 2 weeks and spend a week in Mexico. Other then that we really didn't do much. It was kind of nice to just hang out and have nothing to do. I suppose my last Blog post was kind of a "to be continued..." post. I ended bible study and Mops not having a clue what my next step would be. It was scary, but it was a door that had to be closed. As soon as I closed those doors God was good to open new one's. I sat at my computer one day feeling completely useless and overwhelmed by my need to be used by God. I didn't understand why He would give me so much passion but not let me use it. I began looking through different organizations, plac...

A New Season

For the last week or 2 I have been feeling a little out of place.. A little lost... If that makes sense? For the first time in probably ever, I finally am feeling very balanced. Everything in my life seems to be very evened out right now.  I have a good routine going and the places where I was feeling like I needed to have better habits I have been working on.  Yet something has still been off. This morning a friend helped me realize what it is.  Six years ago after I had Gabe I had started to get a little depressed, I was living in Tucson, just quit my job and was very lonely. Thankfully we moved to Sierra vista when Gabe was 6 months old so I had friends and family to help me cope. My mom told me about a great bible study teacher that I just had to go do a bible study with. I was so ready to get back in church so I jumped at the opportunity. Little did I know that a bible study meant actually studying the bible and doing homework! What?! It was great though, I got pulle...

Building Character

Last week was full of trying new things for me, for putting my faith to the test, for being brave and for working on my confidence. I have seen God's faithfulness come through so much in the past year, not saying that He wasn't there before but I have been more open to it and been much more aware of it recently. About a year ago it had been put on my heart to speak to my MOPS (Mothers of Pre-schooler's) group, but I kept putting it off and I kept making excuses. A million things would run through my head about what I could speak about, but nothing was really worthy enough to speak on to me. This past year we have had girls get up and talk about amazing, life altering situations that they have been in. Awesome stories, yet a little intimidating. I haven't had anything super crazy or horrible happen to me (Thank goodness!), so then I felt even less worthy to get up and speak. Yet that nagging feeling was still on my heart...   bad.  It was taking over my brain, sud...

Break my Heart

Over time I find myself more and more overwhelmed with thoughts, with sensitivities, with deep thoughts of wanting to be more and to do more. I suppose most would just say that is being a woman, however I don't think that is the case. I think it is being a CHRISTIAN. As you get deeper in your walk with God you are more sensitive to most everything. Your heart hurts for the things that hurts God's heart. I see so much corruption, so much bad in the world and I get overwhelmed with the need to help. Yet, I get stuck, I don't even know where to begin. I want to help the orphans, and the human trafficking, the widows, the single parents, the 27 million slaves, the abused children all over the world, the starving families, the homeless, the lost, the confused, and so many more. Every news story, documentary, every single horrible thing I see I have a deep need to help. But I have a family, a bubble, a comfort zone. My children are still very small so I realize that I can'...

New year.. Same me..

Happy new year everyone!! I know the last year flew by for me and probably for all of you! Why does it seem to go faster and faster every year?!  Last year I did so much growing and learning! I would have to say that 2014 was an amazing year for me.  I turned 30 which I was actually excited about! Jesus was 30 when he really started his ministry and not that you need a certain age to do ministry I just felt like I grew so much spiritually that I was finally ready to put myself out there more in ministry.  I worked on my discipline a lot this year, staying rooted in the word, watching my mouth, controlling my thoughts, and changing things about myself that I didn't like. None of that stuff is easy at all but over time it gets easier and eventually the good over takes the bad naturally.  I finally had a chance to act in complete obedience, acting out of 100% faith and it was so amazing! I can't even explain the feeling and the experience!  I finally feel like I ha...

In The Eye of The Storm

Sometimes life can make you feel like you're right in the middle of a horrible storm. You get thrown things at you left and right and it seems like it's never going to end. Just when you think it's over it starts up again. It makes me think of a hurricane, you get through the rough and the bad parts of it only to get to the eye of the storm. You think you are safe, everything is so calm and really great and then out of nowhere the storm starts again. What you don't know is that the second part of the storm is the way out and near the end. Getting through the storm doesn't always mean that there isn't destruction, sometimes there are pieces that are left broken that have to be put back together again. Work still has to be done to fix what the storm has torn apart.  Yet, at the end of the storm there is also a beautiful rainbow, something great is guaranteed to come from the horrible mess that you just confronted.  Yesterday I was driving and it was the most beaut...